Someone from the Epilepsy Foundation called and asked me to write a few paragraphs on why I walk every year in the Summer Stroll for Epilepsy. They tell me they will be using my story in the media to advertise for this year's walk.
As I sat down to write, it felt cathardic to look back and see how God can use my "broken self" for His glory! I was surprised at how good it felt to know that all the heartache of my youth was to prepare me for my ultimate job in life...being a mother. Read below about our journey with epilepsy, and consider walking with us June 12th this year at the Detroit Zoo.
When a girl is twelve, she wants to be like everyone else. “Normal” is a label that a young teen desperately seeks. When I was twelve, I had a grand mal seizure on a family trip to Florida. I was diagnosed with Epilepsy and my life changed forever. For years I struggled, not committing to take my pills, fighting with my parents, and acting out socially as if fighting the world meant it wasn’t true. I kept it a secret from everyone, knowing that I couldn’t be considered “normal” if I shared. Even as an adult, I refused to let epilepsy define me. I would push all my physical limits and dare epilepsy to put restrictions on my life.
Then I became a mother.
And when I looked into my child’s eyes, I made a promise to God to protect, love, and cherish this sweet life that had been entrusted to me. I fell head over heels in love.
When my 18 month old, Carter began showing signs of seizures, we began the same journey to diagnosis that looked totally different from a parents’ perspective. I cried and fought feelings of guilt, but mostly a gut-wrenching fear. And yet again, I found myself fighting. But this time I was fighting for my child. I decided that this journey will be different for Carter. No hiding, no shame. It was then that I decided I would CELEBRATE the beautiful and wonderful spirit of my son. It was time to do something positive to help Carter’s journey (and many others) be a joyful and hopeful one.
my fundraising page: http://epilepsymichigan.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=333608&lis=1&kntae333608=1531535B926743D79B70247F9F160D36&supId=210078473
to join team peterson: http://epilepsymichigan.kintera.org/faf/search/searchTeamPart.asp?ievent=333608&lis=1&kntae333608=1531535B926743D79B70247F9F160D36&supId=0&team=3693425&cj=Y